Friday, August 19, 2011

I'm gonna need new shades!

I don't want to be sick... it's Friday and I have been warding off this cold (I guess its a cold)... for a few days now. I feel like I am losing the battle. (I have since gargled with warm salt water and had tea, feeling a little better).  
I know one thing though... my fingers are cramping like heck! I did two little (big, long haired)  girl heads last night, and I think I have carpal tunnel now o_O. I cant move my fingers correctly and typing right now is rough. Working that blow dryer through all that hair did a number on me, I NO like! Anywhoozle... it is Friday and I don't want to feel like crap, but I do. Today is the last day for our summer intern here at work and last night I went to her "going away" happy hour. I do not usually participate in any work social gatherings but I really like her so I made an exception. It's not that I don't want to hang out with my coworkers, but I'd just rather be with my family after work hours. I've been with those people all day, enough is enough! But like I said, I really like her and I don't think there was anywhere else I'd rather be. And I have to admit, happy hour with the coworkers wasn't half bad. I'm sure they were shocked I stayed as long as I did cause even the times I have participated, I'm always first to leave. New, peaceful Tam knows she doesn't have to worry about what's going on at home when she's not there and doesn't have to rush to get back. I know, for once someone has my back! So I am free to enjoy the other aspects of my life like friends and coworkers...
The blog challenge for today: What You Hope Your Future Will Be Like. And I guess I was kinda thinking about that just now... I hope my future will be an extension of my present and nothing like my past (if that makes any sense). I am in a happy place right now. People I love and that love me surround my life right now. I don't have any (grave) worries or (unmanageable) problems, life is just... AWESOME. And I want my future to be a reflection of the growth of my present. Just like this, same people, just older, wiser, thinner :), more relaxed, still no (grave) worries and (unmanageable) problems, and still working on the peace of Tam. Oh! and married and with babies (just one baby if Chelita does what she's supposed to;). I just love love love my life right now and all the people in it. I do feel like I need to put in more work and cultivate some of these relationships with the people in my life that I love so much and am not dedicating enough Tam time to.
I get so caught up in the responsibilities of being a mom and "girlfriend", I don't want to neglect my other relationships in the process. I want to feel like a good friend, daughter, sister, life coach (lol, yes I have that role, even as crazy as I am), and Christian woman also. I am learning and growing more each day and I hope this path continues into my future.
I'm not even going to go into how I want it to be better than my past. It is the past! As long as I continue to learn and grow and love, I think I wont have any worries of the past. Plus that J guy... you guys already know how I feel about him, right? I mean I can tell you again if you're interested :) He wants nothing but a happy Tam and I know for sure he'd never make me feel the way I have in the past. (Never say never? Well, forget that! he would NEVER!) And he willingly, sometimes forcefully, allows me to enjoy my life aside from him. So the new peaceful Tam can go to happy hour with coworkers, dinner with friends, day with my sister... "whatever you want to do babe!" This may seem so minuscule to some of you, but spend some time in a prison and see how freedom feels to you after that. When you first get out, you don't even know how to be free... still asking permission to use the bathroom at first (Shawshank Redemption reference, lol). But oh to be free and completely feel it!!! Oh happy day!
Farther into the future, when Ikaia is a scientist I plan to be retired and traveling either with her (on all her scientist travels) or on her dime because she's promised to send me wherever I want to go! I love her, she is so smart and beautiful and witty and funny and sarcastic and stubborn and competitive and crazy. She is my little doll, bad but oh so good! And she has big plans for her own life and I'm blessed to be her mommy. I cant wait to see her grown and married with little babies of her own. Maybe the married and babies will be pretty far off since she has dreams of being a scientist but I'm sure her and her doctor husband will find the time to fit the babies in. Ok, back to me traveling... Kaia and I are going to go to Japan first, she says we can go to Singapore too since I really want to go. We'll figure the rest of the destinations out later, we've got time.
I'd say I'm gonna need new shades, cause my future is looking BRIGHT!
Ok, that's enough of that... Happy Friday everyone. My weekend is full of fun, friends and family... hope you enjoy your weekend, I definitely plan to! That's my peace...

Timbuk3 - The Futures So Bright (I Gotta Wear Shades)

"If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans."

P.S. Am I a good friend? sister? daughter? girlfriend? life coach? woman? 



  2. Thanks, I appreciate your reading them! :) HAPPY WEEKEND